Blue Seas

I wandered lonely as a sheep Like the white one which is Tied outside one of the shops In the bazaar- It looks like it has no business Being there. I wandered lonely as a sheep, Bounding over the textbooks, And the half-written diary; And the poetry by Rafael Campo; And the late night coffee mug stain On the desk on which I study, But sometimes end up writing poetry. I wandered lonely as a sheep, Tip-toeing along the chain of thoughts Of love and happiness, And security long-forgotten; Of betrayal and grief And newer emotions I wish I had never discovered; Of friends and friendship; Of love and the man I love Who I know will never love me back. I wandered lonely as a sheep, I heave one last sigh, And jump, over the fence- Beyond, to freedom.

Part I Lucifer, you are mine, No matter how far You push yourself from me, Lucifer, you belong to me. You have sinned, yes. But I have forgiven... You have turned your face away. But Lucifer, I want you to stay. It is easy to do wrong, But even easier to do right. Will you not give me a chance to explain? Lucifer, I call out your name. Come back Lucifer, Your father awaits you, You are the first light Lucifer, Born of my brightness. You are the last light Lucifer, Come back to the source. You wrong not me Lucifer, You wrong yourself tonight. Tonight as you prepare to leave, Think back on all the times you fell, And I was there to pick you up, And to make you well. No sin is too great, Lucifer That I cannot forgive. Because I love you Lucifer, In treason, hatred or grief. Tonight if you leave your home, If you cut yourself from me, I will not scold you, threaten you, throw you away- I will keep my doors open, In case you return t

Have you ever come to a point in your life where everything sucks? All the time. You know what I do when that happens? What? I eat jackfruits. Really? And does that help? I'd like to think it does... But why jackfruits? Because I can't stand the smell of durian. And... And what? And it's comfort food, like sandwiches or Snickers bars. It makes you feel better. So, remember that. When in doubt, eat jackfruits. You are mad, you know that right? You're reading this. Hey, there's no judgement here...

He's nocturnal. He chews everything in sight. He's toilet-trained when it suits him. I've never had to buy so many flip-flops in my life. The other night he woke us up at four in the morning, four , in the morning, a toy dangling from his jaws. He wants to play . Bennetton, our two month old mixed breed puppy. He's jet black, with a white star on his chest. Makes the most ludicrous noises and can't bark. Responds to anything from Ben-Ben, Benny, Benny Boy, to Benu, Beni Madhab and even Put-Put (don't ask). When given a bowlful of Kibble, first he knocks the bowl down with his paw, phut , then he proceeds to eat the Kibble off the floor. Associates all newspapers as property to urinate on. Same goes for mats. He's teething so he chews everything, including us, LMN bottles, his own tail, his own collar, flip-flops... He's afraid of loud noises and strangers, oh, and the dark.